WEDNESDAY

man im so bored.

training was okay, quite fun actually! training later again, maybe ill leave early cause..

CHINESE A'S ARE TOMORROW OMG... SERIOUS?

how come im not even worried?!?!?! heh

heres a interesting song that describes how i feel now..

Please don't Judas me
Treat me as you'd like to be treated
Please don't blacklist me
Leave me as you'd wish to find me
Don't analyze me
Sacrifice me
Please don't Judas me

Please don't chastise me
Show me just one shred of kindness
Try to help me see
Guide me in my eyes of blindness
Don't despise me
Categorize me
Please don't Judas me

No, no, don't Judas me
No, please don't Judas me

Please don't headshrink me
Don't disguise your innuendos
Make no lies to me
I can see the way the wind blows
Don't deface me
Annihilate me
Please don't Judas me

Please don't number me
Don't betray my trust and promise
Please don't anger me
I find it hard to bear no fairness
Don't frustrate me
Manipulate me
Please don't Judas me

No, no, don't Judas me
No, please don't Judas me







please.. dont judas me again

MONDAY-FUCK!!

OMFG I GOT FOOD POISONING...

AND ITS MY MOTHERS BIRTHDAY AND I COULDNT MAKE IT TO THE DINNER CAUSE THE MINUTE I CAME HOME I WAS PUKING ALL OVER THE PLACE....


FFFUUUCCCKK!!!

must be the stupid clam chowder with julia today at long john's, im sure of it! maybe the cashier didnt like me and peeded in it or something! UGH!!

anyway finally met julia again today! saw jon after quite a while too!! and chester came as well. it was fun! we just sat there and played bridge the whoole day but i had alot of fun! but i was already feeling a little queasy though..

OMG in the cab i knew something was wrong. i was feeling wierd cause firstly..

1) the driver really sucked, he kept breaking and accelerating the frickin cab which made me want to puke in his face!
2) my phone wasnt working
3) i had a headache
4) its my mum's birthday and i didnt know if i could go to the dinner later!

omgawd in the end i didnt go and it sucked ugh felt so bad sorry mum!! (p.s i know you read this ahah)

the weekend wasnt any better. training on saturday was slack (phew) though.. lazed around the whole day, ate a WHOLE REGULAR PAN PIZZA and 6 SPICY DRUMLETS courtesy of pizza hut haha omg such a pig..

sunday morning and afternoon i lazed around again. didnt go to the gym or run or do anything i was so sick of it already! haha. the band met up in the afternoon at brian's house to do some writing, but imho we didnt really get much done. a small incident that pissed me off could've turned into a big one but as said, i shant bother anymore. its not MY band its OUR's and definetly not YOURS. sometimes it gets hard.. really hard to tolerate other people's behaviour when they dont get things done. sure i get stressed all the time but at least i finish tasks that we should've. now im the bad guy cause all you do is slack and get shit from me? wow okay thanks alot.

fuck its so irritating! ugh.

training tmr, last one before chinese a's!! PASS PLEASE OMGGG

FRIDAY

its funny how a stupid thing like that can affect me..

i mean, i wasnt even supposed to be bothered or get paranoid with anything to do with you but yet... i cant help it. stupid me, its a SERIOUS character flaw.

so please, for my own good, dont let it be something!!







training at 8am tomorrow, another death day bitches! get used to it hehe

THURSDAY

HELLO!!

training has been tough.. but really fulfilling!! at least thats how i feel. i try to be joke a little here and there just to make it a wee-bit more interesting but at the end of the day, i want to improve and get fitter and all that shit! so i guess some people dont understand how big of a deal it is to me, oh well they'll understand, someday.

oh my my FINAL (hopefully) chinese class is tomorrow! im not going to skip just for the sake of it, i just hope i can learn something that'll help me pass next thursday! hopefully i wont have to put myself through hell for another half a year next year!! i WANT TO GET OVER CHINESE HAHHAHA SOUNDS SO DESPERATE BUT THAT IS THE SITUATION.

trying to get in the mood for PROJECT WORK! tomorrow we're shooting a video as our group item and hopefully, ill be funny enough that we would score well for that video! hopefully..

ugh gotta do my SCRIPT now ):

tomorrow please?

SUNDAY

jam was.. okay haha the studio sucked though. some of the originals were well received!! to all our fans (right now i can only count one HAHA)

you'll be hearing original material from us soon!!

i need motivation/purpose to write lyrics, there hasnt really been anything interesting happening lately that would sit me up and allow me to write nice lyrics too haha.

and DAMN YOU BEAT MERCHANTS FOR HAVING LOUSY BASS DRUM PEDALS WHICH ADITYA OBVIOUSLY DIDNT BREAK ON PURPOSE, IT WAS A RESULT OF WEAR AND TEAR AND COST US POOR BOIS $30 BUCKS ):.

20 of which i forked out haha, aditya pay me back!!

chinese mock exam tomorrow i think? dont even know where ill be taking it haha my lack of interest is amazing isnt it?

went to PLAZA SINGAPURA in the first time for a long time yesterday with angmoh, blangalah jiaxin and fauzan haha helpped the poor angmoh pick out some nice paper,stickers,stuff for someone special! hope it turned out all fine today.

2 MORE WEEKS TO END OF CHINESE AND PROJECT WORK OP AND...


"OFFICIAL" END OF MY ACADEMIC YEAR WHOOPEE!!!.

and i thought promos was the end of all that bullshit!! guess i was wrong haha

GOD BLESS!

FRIDAY

another useless week, 2 more to go before im REALLY free. damn you chinese and project work. ESPECIALLY CHINESE.

played quite abit of hockey this week, though training was quite fun it was quite slack this week! surprise surprise thank god we wont be seeing firdaus this week otherwise ill just..

die.

met up with mah homies yo' on thursday, totally forgot about my d to da double-o-g line but what the heck, ill have a chance to say that on helloween!! roxane you better organise a kickass partay ahha!!!

some university talk tomorrow, nothing on after that. quick quick people lets go out!! i dont want to stay at home and do nothing ugh.




not again, please?

MONDAY

Today... was a good and bad day.

i enjoyed my early morning activity. its something that i dont do often so i hope you enjoyed it too :D.


school sucked, reached school late for chinese haha! oh well gotta finish my draft for my slides by thursday for the dry run which we managed to push back to friday? or was it monday? Damn i cant even remember.

training sucked. got wacked in the ankle and in the face, the latter being a result of my sucky control. dammit im damn useless ugh.

and i got to do a chinese paper? and its 9.40pm now? forget it man. i'll just pass ugh no motivation to even get a decent c grade for the a levels. screw the bonus points!! who needs bonus points anyway? im not going to take medical or law anyway.ugh.

chinese again tomorrow, time to get screwed along with 12390213901290 other people who wont do the paper. ah heading to BEDOK CORNER now to meet tommy cheang yunsong bo, cya peepszxcz.


huahua ^^

TUESDAY

oh man i feel so... ugh.

im probably the dumbest guy on the face of the earth, and probably the weakest emotionally as well. im like oblivious to everything that people have said to me, i chose to continue believing and playing along.. im paranoid and negative. that i know and frankly that i cannot change. not so quickly anyway..oh well..

ugh, im starting to fall into the training routine, after a whole year of wasted time basically doing nothing physically, im starting to feel the urgency to start running faster and training harder. i have a feeling im going to burn out if i take H3 during the holidays. ahhhh i think too much!!

oh well at least i made this really freaky riff today! its in drop D, the ultimate metal tuning heh heh. kinda finished up vocal melodies for the slow, ballady song. i hope the guys like it man though its not really our type of stuff! dont get me wrong i still love headbangin metal! i just think a little variation would be good ^^.

oh man i gotta get a good condenser mic and preamp soon, GOTTA START RECORDING I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY BITCHES.

night

TUESDAY

ahh i cant really describe how im feeling now but i'll try..

i guess i feel lost and i feel like ive been living in my own happy world for quite a long time. people will do things that hurt other people and i guess that i have to accept that and move on. the worst part is when you totally didnt even expect it. ahh the horrors of deception and lies..

on a lighter note....

got back most of my results yesterday and must say im pretty happy!! All that hard work, extra pimples and growing belly paid off after all!

We all have our own expectations, to those who didnt do as well as they would've wanted, dont be pulled down! Continue working hard and prove yourself and everyone else wrong next time! dont give up (:

woke up at 11.05 today wtf. cant believe its only the second day back in school and im so dead! oh well at least now i'll have the WHOLE house to myself and i can spam slayer without hearing shit like " SHHHHHH" or "TURN IT DOWN" from binghao haha.

ouch my fingers hurt, i officially have 4 blisters on my left hand and 1 on my 4th toe on both my right and left foot! ouch.


going back to school later for chinese(i hope) and training. i think ill end up skipping chinese and just going for trianing LOL gdday

SUNDAY

school tomorrow, damn.

had a pretty fun weekend! I cant believe that it's the first official weekend after promos, seems like ages ago that i was taking the papers ugh so much has happened!

ugh cant wait to jam again and get all the shit out once again. we gotta play some gigs man make some more new FRIENDS. i gotta achieve something with the band, hopefully we'll do it soon!!

training again tomorrow, damn fun! somehow i love getting blisters on my legs and hands!(fauzan that was for you muackz)


oh yes and speaking of fauzan, selamat hari raya! went to his house today for a gathering of sorts, had a fun time there and at tampines with the others later buying my shoe, cutting my hair and talking bullshit about basically everything! haha friends in vjc are so much fun!

getting back some results tomorrow, ECONOMICS FIRST OMFGGGG....

hopefully i wont get a s/u!! (:(: night people

THURSDAY

omg training today was..

killer. and come to think of it, it was actually pretty frickin slack. Ran around the school 3 times half round jog half round stride (i.e FUCKING FAST OMG). First round im still in there.. by the 3rd round im like "shit i didnt know the school was this big" ugh. gotta work on the gripping and hitting! absolutely hate blisters and omg groin muscle pulls. i fucking pulled it on the first day now i can hardly sit down without shouting. damn this sucks

finally heard the recordings of the jam session, no remorse kicks so much ass!!!


NO FUCKING REMORSE BITCH!!!!


haha totally best song ever i wanna keep it in the setlist forever!!

i hope we play as many gigs as we can now, and im going to propose to the guys that we concentrate on 4-5 originals for a while and fucking go record them or something. to show everyone out there that we aren't "arrogant" and that we actually do something besides playing covers. hahaha hate all the frickin haters who think they're originals rock but it turns out its all revolving around 4 chords with absolutely no song structure and just a bunch of chessy lyrics to probably some girl/guy. ugh im so past those type of songs man.

BRING ON THE METAL!

training again tmr ): sad everyone who reads this is obligied to pray for my safety and hopefully, i wont die and collaspe.

if i do, then at least i know this blog wont get updated again!

night

WEDNESDAY

Finally caught eagle eye yesterday!

Great show man though it was kinda predictable after a while i lovee the action scene's and damn Michelle Monaghan is the hawtest mature chick ever-period!!

damn plaza sing sucks when it rains! big time man theres like absolutely no cab that has the balls to stop along the road now cause of all the policemen and shit. we ended up waiting like 20 minutes in the rain only to finally decide to take a train back..

jam session was fun too, though we got stuff to work on. brian had school so he didnt come! but the songs arent hard so yeah we'll be (finally) playing new songs from now! hopefully they KICK YOUR fucking ass

been playing guitar more than ever nowadays. I just need an avenue to channel all the stress and angstiness from exams and everything else in general.

this is so cheesy but im..

FALLING IN LOVE WITH IT AGAIN

OH dean dave mustaine VMNT "angel of deth" that i ordered on saturday.. why have you not arrived yet?!?!?!


CANT FUCKING WAIT