how do you separate friends who come and go from true and sincere ones?

how do you know your "friends" will

offer you a shoulder to cry on when you need them too?

offer a conversation when you need one?

offer to give anything to help you in anyway you can?

i dont think you actually can separate these two groups of people. if you try too, you may end up dissapointed, hurt and betrayed by the very ones who you put your life in. life's a bitch i got used to it a long time ago.

you should instead just look on the brighter side of things, stop getting paranoid and just enjoy whatever time you have with your friends and not bother to consider if their serious about you or not. you'll be surprised how much happier you'll be, i know im a much happier person. in conclusion, DONT THINK TOO MUCH

FRIDAY

NO TRAINING TODAY!!!

everyone say "WHOO-HOO!!".

i went over to BISHAN yesterday to get my new floorball stick. God knows who built that place its so bloody far. Totally ripped a few people off by buying the fatpipe 2007 Wiz27 model which costs only $85 bucks compaired to the other newer 2008 models which wouldve cost around 150? I dont really need nice looking sticks, or really advanced sticks or whatever. I just need something that feels good (: Hopefully ill be able to join the S.I.M team in sooner rather than later havent played floorball in ages! Its been all hockey hockey hockey man haha.

Speaking of hockey.. i got 3 fricking disgusting blisters on my foot which hurts like..

HELL

i hope ill be fine tomorrow morning, got a tiny 3 on 3 tournament at Valhall which john asked me to play in shit. im so gonna suck 0:

shit my newly set up Dave mustaine flying V totally kicks the shit out of anything ive ever played my whole life. the solo tone is absolutely killer even with the really muddy BB preamp!! 19TH DECEMBER AT ODIOCRIB STUDIOS BE THERE!!!we should be playing around 5PM or later (hopefully).
we'll be playing new songs as well as hopefully an original which i hope we can get together soon to finish.

okay boring day today, i guess ill read "CELL" by stephan king which is an absolutely exciting/engaging/addictive book recommended by mr "ladies man" aloycious ^^. Damn i love it, the suspense and all the fricking "phone-crazies" haha. thank you aloy!!

going to wack the shit out the dave mustaine again, cya kids

THURSDAY

SOOO!!!

stay over at captain fauzan's house yesterday was fun!! i came with 15 ko-song prata in one hand and a bag full of oil-ladden potato chips in the other!! what a combination!! not to mention the 2 regular pan pizza's and 1.5L pepsi that the dudes ordered. all that food for 5 tiny hockey guys!!!

okay wait.. me and b foo aint exactly tiny haha ouch.

we watched 2 really lame movies, some roscoe shit and the 40 year old virgin which in my humble opinion was really like soft porn haha! with a little help from bfoo and www.cuteworm.com, we got warcraft on fauzan's computer! Now that dude is going to end up like me, playing every night till 2/3/4 am and waking up at 12/1/2 pm haha!! have fun in america, the land of racism and change mr captain!

ahh and i overslept for training after leaving in the morning, my apologies!

met jon,chester,ryan,senghuat,yunsong and his new friend (lol) wendy at simpang the past 2 days! nice company! All of us except yunsong ended up really doing nothing but dota-ing haha what a life. But i enjoyed myself!

Ahh i need to find some other activity besides lan and trainings! Hmm maybe someone could recommend a really cool book for me to read? Not fantasy shit involving dragons *COUGH* ARAGON AH FOO *COUGH* or cheesy love stories *COUGH* TWILIGHT ah MAN *COUGH* haha kidding. I think a good read would be just right for me!

Sending the VMNT monster to set-up on monday, after that im going to really start practising and learning how to play the guitar. Ive been so stagnant its sad!! Dont worry metalheads, i aint selling out. Just trying to learn other cool styles which hopefully i can incorporate in metal! haha

oh and..

BYEBYE PS500!! YOU SUCKED!!

SUNDAY

Okay i didnt have a good weekend. Maybe the events of the week have been overwhelming and im just tired of everything and everyone and i wont be taken for a fool anymore.

Saw my grandma today, after a few weeks. I feel so bad cause i havent been going regularly, but i guess thats easy to say. I hope i wont succumb to temptation and start visiting her more. Im glad that we are going to HK in dec together (:. People age and its really scary. People change too.. ah its scary.

I want to fucking record soon, line 6 toneport/ firewire m-audio solo here i come!!!

screw it if the others dont want to do anything and procrastinate.

another crazy training week coming up. training in the afternoon tomorrow so i guess my day is pretty much gone. haha too bad.

MONDAY

"MY NAME IS APU.

AND WE PLAY RIDE THE LIGHTNING!!"

omg finally had one SUCCESSFUL jam session yesterday where we got everything down and had fun. fourtones studio is quite a good place to jam after all though i think the drums and guitar amps are too huge. couldnt hear my solos on some of the recordings and vocals as well.. we still have some parts to work on as well haha. oh well!! next time i'll suggest we tone down everything, INCLUDING drums hahahha!!

went to watch this yesterday after the session..


it was a damn anti-climax dammit!! sure the action scenes and all the girls were good, typical james bond stuff. but i was expecting something better in the storyline, i was like lost halfway in me and suren were like "what the fuck is going on?" haha.

training in about an hour, heading off early today nothing to do at home zzz.


havent heard from you in a while, hope you're doing fine. study hard (:

oh and
POLARIX WILL BE PLAYING A GIG ON 19TH DEC AT ODIOCRIB STUDIOS TOGETHER WITH XANADOO AND SOME OTHER KICKASS BANDS. DO TRY TO MAKE IT TIMING AND PRICING ILL INFORM YOU AGAIN. THANKEW POSTER UP SOON!!

WEDNESDAY

so the school term has ended! finally thank god.

i am now officially no more a JC1 student, but not yet a JC2 one!

ahh the honeymoon period. though im sure this wont be as good as just after the o levels, im sure (hope) ill still enjoy myself this holidays!its a bad thing that all ive got is training for the foreseeable future. not that training sucks!i enjoy it alot though it kills my knees (damn gotta work on that) and wastes my money on lychee drinks from the vending machine haha.

jamming this sunday at FOURTONES STUDIO for the first time in a long time and hopefulyl no the last time. didnt have much fun at all during the last which is kinda like the whole purpose of jam sessions no? NO i think we're big enough to have fun and actually accomplish something and not waste time like we did when we first started. If we accomplish something, i think we'll naturally have fun. so lets start working on that first rather than "having time to do other stuff".

its amazing now self-centered some people can get. im not asking for a 100% from you, i just need 99. that 1 percent can be set aside for you not learning the whole song during sessions. now you're saying that IM booking the studio too early for you to do other stuff in the day and that basically your day is WASTED jamming? eat my shit suckar i cant believe you can actually say that. i come back from training at 8-9 ish and im dead tired i still pick up my guitar and practise. i sing to myself, even though i can realise its horrible sometimes but thats where we all need to be before we're good, horrible and not "i dont give a shit".

this sucks im going to have me some.gdday

SATURDAY

im official sick!! took my running nose long enough to develop into something much more menacing, a frickin infection!

so now i cant talk, and my oral presentation for PW is like on monday omgxz so dead.

chinese a's sucked balls, like really it was terrible to think that the worst chinese paper that i ever did would be my last.. no wait maybe ill have to retake next year omg cant $800,000 just fall out of the sky and then i can like go to an overseas university and not continue my torturous journey with chinese.. if i retake, someone PLEASE PAY FOR MY ENTRY FEE FOR THE CHINESE EXAM NEXT YEAR CAUSE I DONT GIVE A SHIT!!

met our new hockey coach on thursday, together with mr "sports science". interesting people very friendly!! hope that i'll improve under them.

friday was spent training. we ran 8km and with about 1km to go.. i had a frickin bad stich! omg why?!?!?! it was going well till that point but then it all had to go wrong damn. must be the lychee drink i drank before that omg.

hmm after which headed to the airport with alex, fauzan, b foo, siwei and weiliang to have a well deserved, fufilling dinner haha! soccer- hockey UNITE!!

on my way back.. got a very interesting phone call from a very interesting someone

chester "eh dog, today halloween never go out ah?"
me "no man, i just ate dinner at the airport"
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..
..
*meaningless rubbish*
chester "eh i at a halloween party sia, come leh"

me "OKAY!"

so headed over to serrangoon at an unearthly hour of 1030pm and took care of my dear, drunk, lousy drinker friend chester koh. saw ry and emeline and lots of chester's funny friends! thanks to the host vicky for letting me crash the party. cant believe i saw hanwei there too!! i was like stunned "omg thats not hanwei". i stared for like 10 seconds before looking away.. then looking back again. thank god she waved otherwise i wouldnt say hi haha! couldnt recognise you sorry!

reached home around 3, woke up today feeling weak and sick.

hope ill get well by monday, COME ON OP!!