SUNDAY

yay im putting up weekly updates now, gotta spend less time on the computer and more time in school!

Speaking of school, i didnt go to school on wednesday. surprise? haha i knew that i was bound to skip one sometime or another this week, still in the holiday mood. Attended one 35 minute math lecture, one hour and ten min econs lecture and 5 tutorials this whole week! Amazing im so en-route to my A's in the A levels, not.

thinking about H3 econs.. i did quite badly this time for the H2 so maybe im not as good as i thought i am. Oh well why am i even bothering? its term 2 which means...


SEASON TIME!!


and


MUSICFEST BITCHES!!!


yes the auditions were 2 days ago. Had fun in both Band 3 (polarix+darren-brian) and Band 4 (polarix+darren+pris-brian) haha!

so obviously we picked Band 4 to go in. Highway star was fucking fucking kickass man priscilla did a REALLY KICKASS JOB :D:D. and darren too though his guitar was rly fucked up. STUPID PA KREW. next round he'll get his solo :D haha. aby aditya and me were usual i guess.. having fun cause to me thats really all there is to playing in school. so what if we win musicfest? does that mean that im musically better than everyone else in vjc? does that mean that my band is the BEST THERE EVER WILL BE IN VJ?! hell no! it just means that the audience liked us best. cause we know how to put up a show. so im glad that pris and darren got that on friday inspite of all the technical difficulties and inspite of what some really smart-asses (or at least they think they are) had to say, we still kicked ass!! so we will stick with the choir singer and i wont mind a guitar ensemb guitarist in Band 4 as well :D. some people just dont get it.



off to play with my ableton live lite 6 and m audio firewire solo :D

SATURDAY

this week has been really wierd..

i ate at seoul garden for the first time in a really long time on thursday after our match against RJ. it was sort of a hockey gathering i guess i had fun. im just not that up for blending around and making new friends. ill rather stick to those that i already have thank you very much. i guess that recently i dont seem to be that sociable anymore.. but the food was good!

im playing metal again. it feels good to kick some ass at home at 2.41am today playing along to the "master of puppets" solo. I can hardly play it now, my speed is all gone and so is parts of the technique which i took so long to build up. guess it'll take quite a while more for me to get it all back. sigh.

i havent been sleeping at all this week, considering that its the holidays that is REALLY WIERD. i mean the past few nights i went to bed past 4 am. i have absolutely no idea why. by 1, im way stoned and ready to get to bed but i just cant sleep. i keep thinking about something,anything,EVERYTHING! its frustrating i just want it to go away but it cant. fuck.

friday night was a really good release though. met julia, phin siew, shuyun,angeline and chester for some drinks and chilling out at julia's mad ass krib. somehow for that few alcohol-induced moments, i felt happy. goddammit GIN is the fucking worst alcholic drink ever. i havent tasted it for so long that i forgot how bad it was. SHIT.

watched "mall cop" today. It was a really funny show! enjoyed myself thoroughly. also had fun eating steamboat at bugis before that, was a really interesting experience for me :D.

school's starting on monday. time to pack my bag and get back to hell. fuck

MONDAY

ugh ill be having training and matches every day this week..

DAMMIT.

at least soccer at east coast today was fun, and painful haha.


MUSICFEST AUDITIONS ARE COMING UP!!!! I hope that the band with priscilla and darren are able to blend well together and play some kickass "love" songs. as for polarix..

I JUST WANT TO KICK SOME VICTORIAN PUSSY ASS!!!

gdday.

SUNDAY

The past 2 days have been the worst days of my life, period.

i didnt get any sleep till 4 yesterday. i was thinking about everything. how everyone messed everything up. you may say its only me but ultimately it takes two hands to clap. but on my part, i apologize.

i need to get stoned man, big time. thats what the holidays are for arent they? They help you forget and start anew.

as in the wise words of corey taylor, slipknot/stone sour font man..


"FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD! FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!"

SATURDAY

"....

If it's more than an infatuation, then tell her about it. If she doesn't feel the same way, forget about it. Move on with life. "


Courtesy kerplunk182 soft.com.sg

you find the wierdest quotes on that forum man..

'God is a number we cannot count 'Marilyn Manson

So interesting..

today has been one of the worst days of my life. "you fucking loser la seriously" thanks alot chester i know. it made me know who i should love, trust and care about.

alas, i know it isnt you.


good luck and sorry. i mean it.

FRIDAY

why is it so stupid with you?!



its a friday night and ill be alone at home. ah the peace and serenity.. i wont be doing anything stupid today.. hopefully.

speaking of stupid, what i said was probably stupid since you dont really give a fuck so yes, IM THE LOSER. god bless you take care see you whenever,whereever,whatever.

going running later, to kick the habit and to destress. seasons coming, better start getting things straight.

FRIDAY

sorry didnt go school for the VOG today, had a mighty headache.. didnt sleep enough fuck im such a loser i need to sleep at least 7 hours each day for my body to function.


ct's are over yay. soon it'll be season, then studying for the next 4 months.. hahah!

DAMN IT


FUCK IT



FUCK YOU

FAITH..

"What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see."

from jovan's blog. so true.

right now, ive lost all faith in you

SATURDAY

gig was alright, had alot of fun and there was even a blackout during our set! crazy stuff man.

schools been a routine. i cant wait for next thursday, exams are over. i tell you im so gonna get stoned durign the holidays even if i dont get to ROMPIV. ugh but i never liked the atmosphere at clubs, especially when you're not with your friends.

oh well.

all i can think of now is.

HOW DUMB I AM

HOW GULLIBLE I AM

HOW RETARDED SINGAPOREANS ARE.

that applies to those living outside of singapore as well.

seriously some people's behaviour is just EXTRAORDINARY.

i do my best to accomadate you. I DONT EVEN THINK IM BOTHERING YOU.

AM I?! well if i am TELL ME.

im going crazy, over you? hopefully not because ill be damned if i can find out WHY I FEEL THIS WAY. its so crazy i love you then i hate you AHH PLUS SCHOOL WORK AND COMMON TESTS AND TRAININGS OMG ITS DRIVING ME FUCKING INSANE!!

i just need a release.


god,someone,anyone TAKE ME