I am not going to post much on this space anymore, as you may have noticed

this blog has been active since I was in sec 3, abilet for some mini periods of absence in between. I thunk I am really at the end of a very important stage of my life. We all are. So I'll hopefully have time to create another one and I'll post the URL here. It has been a great time, growing up. I have learnt so much, I can say that confidently even though I know that I still have a long way to go. Thank you to every single one of you who have walked into my life:) and for those who have came and gone, I find myself humble enough to say thank you too. In spite of how angsty I can be, thank you because you have had an impact on me resulting in what I am today. You know who you are!

Gosh I don't even know who reads this anymore!

POP LO!

i dont even know why i still get so angry, the world knows what kind of girl you are now haha. youre manipulating do you know that? i bet you dont cause you're too stuck up in your own little cloud of illusions that because you are the kind of person you are, the results artsy attitude the church that you are perfect and doing everything correctly. wrong man. the world doesnt work your way, it is not perfectly normal the things that you did/are doing. geez, grow a heart and stop using your brain so much.

dammit

omfg i miss the fucking world.

army sucks, not the activites of the company (section 1 rulezx), but just that i can only see my mother and other people that i desperately want to see like once a fucking week. Wait actually less, in like a month ive only booked out twice. Fuck that shit. And damn i got guard duty next weekend because my rifle got stunned in field camp. fucking amazingzx :(

happy birthday jonathan. i hope you study hard and play hard as well of course! i really hope you do well for your a's, it will be worth it trust me. (i know you confirm read this even though i havent posted in over a month).

i think i forgot how to play the guitar, hahaha ive only played it once in a month. Booking in in 2 hours ill try to sqeeuze some time in later.

The first week in army certainly sucked, especially since a fucking "special" someone couldnt even wish me for reasons which i obviously will not be able to comprehend because i am so DIFFERENT from you? hahaha bunch of bullshit girl, what you did was fucking despicable, you will see it. have fun with your new boytoy, dont change so fast okay now? hahahaha fucking joke.

i love bookouts, i hate sundays now sigh.

omg bye world..

my status as a civilian if officially ending! WOOO HELLO TEKONG/SMELLY BOYS/PIMPLES/SWEAT/TEARS(HAHAH)/EMO NIGHTS/SHITTY HANDPHONES!

I wish that I had a bloody laptop, then I could go online in a airconditioned room.

It's days like this which makes me realise how lucky I am, because I have all the people I need to move onto the next big thing in my life:) it's not about how much value they are to me, but rather how happy I am that I can even be there for them, and they for me.:))

hope you're doing well

I'm home alone this week!

You guys know what that means.. Lotsa food and sitting down watching tv haha.

Binghaos in army whereas mums in china for work:( i hope the nights won't be boring and I hope I won't run short of cigarettes and food! I'm out tonight though:(

lamb of god on Thursday!!\m/

And I know that the band is very inefficient (haha) but I hope that we all meet up at least once this week to jam:)

woo and party on Saturday!:)

Is all of this madness for the best? Hahaha in case you never noticed, I never cared for my best even though I should.

there is So much I still want to say, or rather there is so much that I wish you would say, or hey, at least say something.

how did i go from this...





to what i am now?

2 very nice songs with almost similar titles!