SATURDAY

its fucking early now, 10 on a saturday morning. im shagged from all the running yesterday, school and little useless things that i get all ruffled up about.

there is so much shit happening now man. 2 months to promos, singapore band challenge semis next week, hockey, singapore band challenge finals plus showcases all throughout october. this is the first time that i'll probably have to prioritise what i have to spend my time and energy on. im honestly not excited about SBC semis, cause we sucked so bad in the quarters. sure the judges may have said that "we are the band to beat" but i think its all a big joke cause they cant see us 17 year-olds feeling all down and depressed if they shoot us.at least they gave brian some shit for being a "great" rhythm guitarist. i was so pissed i couldve killed someone, but at least we got through.

now we have different opinions on what to play for the semis. i honestly dont want to think anymore because this is not MY band. in the first place, this is not ANYONE's band. it doesnt belond to anyone, no one is in control. we all need opinions,enthusiasm and craziness from each of us.right now im getting the opinions part only from 2. one has fucking dance which i have absolutely no appreciation of.this sucks man.

and im so confused about alot of things right now. what am i supposed to do man seriously?should i even think about what to do? right now my answer is no. because im just enjoying whatever time i have with you and not thinking about what could/couldnt happen next. few weeks ago i probably would have been really stressed and freaked out (hahaha that stage was really funny) but now im trying not too.i just hope you're enjoying our time together just like i am.

then again, i shouldnt think and expect so much eh? time to eat kids