After results on Friday, we really have finished the 'kids' phase of our lives. It is scary, and intimidating to suddenly realise that you're not going to be able to be stupid and get away with it, or you can wake up with absolutely nothing or everything to do because of the lack of a fixed schedule to tell us what to do. Of course for guys it's different but still..

All this added to the stress about actually receiving the results on Friday is killing me! I spent the last few days looking at courses and local scholarships.. Sigh nothing still really appeals to me but if I do well I may apply and become just like everyone else. Or I may not! And keep my options open! I think I enjoy this newfound freedom, cause I have always been a blind ass believer of the system, doing most of what they tell me to do academically.

Sigh, it's been keeping me up recently, nights where I'm not out I've been sleeping EARLIEST at 4am:( I woke up at 4 today, sigh this is not healthy. And I have to go to church omg.

Oh and of course there's you. I almost forgot. Can't you see, that this whole thing is helping and not an easy way out for me. You're not making it easier by not replying. Zzz wtf man.


side track, goodluck to your new job Yvette! "Cher' cher'!"