this week has been tough. i have been thinking alot more than usual, getting wasted on wednesday certainly didnt help but it was fun!

sigh, im still trying to come to a rational, practical decision on what to do now. i am obviously not any happier, i dont know if you are. if you're not, then what are we even doing apart?! i dont know, im too naive. i dont think far ahead like you, i dont do all of that but.. sometimes, isnt it good just to be happy? i think, i am the complete opposite of a badass. one of my new friends just told me this yesterday "wa actually, you not much of a baddass sia, you're quite a emo thinking boy you gay shit" hahahaha. i guess people like the idea, but when they figure im not that, they go.

gay shit....

supper club and ntu talk tomorrow! hope its fun. and grr i need to fucking sleep.