there comes a time in everybody's life where we HAVE to grow up and stop acting like scene kids. the need to fit in is something everyone experiences through their teenage years. but not to this extent. it is so sad, to see your best friend(s) fall victim to that whole cause of being a bad-ass/cool/fresh/unique whatever it is and losing that friendship. up till today, i still dont see what that night did for anyone. because apparently me showing my feelings crying and saying those things didnt get through to ANYONE?? i guess not because the same thing happened the next day.. and the day after that.. and the day after that...

...

sigh, is this time i grow up? after all, if there is anything i learnt from 2009, it was that we ALL have a right to be selfish at some point or another. does this mean that ill just move on from you guys? i mean its not like ill ever embrace the things that you do, thats a definite fact.

caas talk on monday. one of the few organisations that i even have a SLIGHT interest in. but if its only a slight interest, then why bother even attending? there are bound to be many other people who want this more than me.

sigh.