I'm so fucked up that I laughed only 4 times through out zohan.

I can't be bothered to write in my little book anymore. I'll give it to you soon. It just shows how hopeful I have been, and how dumb that may have been. Like YOU said right, just 'deal with it'. When I read whatever it is that I've written, I feel like a two faced Fucker. I appear strong in front of most of my friends but actually every single second that I think about you I go fucking insane and crazy. And no I'm not trying to make you feel guilty if you still think this is about that and you actually think that I'm that sort of person then I have nothing to say.

Whatever la hor, I have to deal with it!

Go enjoy youself, live your own life, you never seemed like you needed me to be a part of it anyway.