MONDAY

its another long weekend, another one of those times when we get to spend time.. with ourselves and our minds and make decisions or review on those that were already made.

sometimes, i wish i were more brave. not in the sense that i wish i were more brave and did more stupid things like run through the canteen naked all that kinda shit.. but i wish that i am brave enough to live with what i have decided. because if there is anything i learnt, it is that once you decide on something, you stick to it no matter what. theres no looking back at anything/anyone, throw away all your tini little suspicions.

there have also been some other decisions that have been plaguing me. somehow, i dont think it is easy to stop doing what you have been doing for.. a while already. it seemed like just a few weeks ago when i was back in j1-pae period, always skipping school just to go to chester's house to hang out. but i dont see that as a real problem, and i guess maybe thats why for me its so hard to stop. with something new coming into the picture, i guess i MAY try harder to stop.

sometimes, we guys think too much right? i mean, we're really sensitive creatures.. probably more sensitive than girls actually. once we see something that we want, we put our whole life into accomplishing that. right now as a sensible friend has rightly said.. "its time for me to decide what i want with this".