SATURDAY

yesterday's gig was fucking awesome thank you so much to everyone who bothered to turn up. im sure ill repay you somehow (haha). next thursday, christmas night, we'll be having another one at home club. i really hope i will see a few people there that i didnt see, not because i want them to come for the gig, but because i want to see them, period.

off to JB tomorrow for a paintballin experience! hopefully i wont get owned too much. :X havent really drawn up a battle plan yet though, i guess ill just fire on will! haha

havent done any christmas shopping at all this year. maybe ill start on monday when im back or ill just buy everyone belated christmas/ happy new year presents while im in Hongkong. ahh i certainly know what im getting myself.

i cant help but embrace the negativity from the things that have been happening recently. sure everyone says "look on the bright side" or "be more positive!" or just "forget about it!" and shit like that but hey if you just run away, nothings going to get better. its going to the same thing over and over again with a different person.

i dont care if it hurts
i just wanna have control
i want a perfect body...


i want a perfect SOUL